I experienced loss of relationships, finances and ambitious dreams. I truly believed I was dying and going to die. Due to out of pocket medical bills my funds were depleting and no doctor could understand what was wrong or how to help. I lost my vocation, my fiance, my home, and my only remaining relative, my mother passed away. I had been rejected twice from disability and had to hire a lawyer ( pro Bono ) as I was going to tribunal. I ended up in a car accident,( hit black ice ) which added 2 more years of an additional therapy treatment in 2011. By this time the property I owned in Canada, a condo had slipped out from under me. I could no longer make payments. I was transient moving from friend's house to friend's house, on occasion my car. In this mess I was still so violently ill on a daily basis, in and out of emergency rooms as well.
At complete rock bottom, by the grace of God I was "adopted" by a Christian family whose daughter was seeing the same Naturopath as myself. A family I did not know, nor did they know me, but took me in anyway. Finally someone at social services listened to me and could clearly see my need, I was placed on single welfare. A complete blessing and blow at the same time to myself worth and all that I had worked for. Again, another blessing came into play. I got money from the car accident, had my disability tribunal by phone due to my physical circumstances and was granted monies. These two processes took 5 years to come to fruition. I immediately began to research hope for treatment on the USA side as unfortunately, except for a few brave Canadian doctors, Canada in general does not recognize, nor appropriately treat Lyme disease to date. Many people worldwide are forced to seek out of pocket treatment in the USA, with Reno, Nevada having one of the most comprehensive treatment clinics. By the time I reached a Lyme treatment clinic in Reno Nevada USA ,2014, I had gone into organ failure in 2 organs, and near failure in 2 other organs. It was there, I hung on through a roller coaster journey of 5 months of intensely painful yet lifesaving treatment. It was also there, I met my now husband and now we fight together.
Am I Lyme free, no. Am I without symptoms, no. Am I debt free, no. Am I alive and functional right now, yes. Am I hopeful for myself and others that WE ARE creating a voice and new treatments are progressing, YES! My ART has helped me cope, because it is a passion. No matter how big or small if something is a passion you can get lost in it. It can take you away to another realm. It gives me purpose and feelings of joy instead of pain. It gives me self worth again. EVERY person with Lyme disease IS A PERSON with something to give. No matter how big or how small you can make a difference. Have you ever smiled at someone or given a complement to someone who looks like they need it, as much as you do? Well what do you think you just did? Brightened someone’s moment. That’s what my art does for me. It helps me to brighten the moments.
My hope is to brighten other people’s moments with it. Lowest point : Rock bottom: I had already lost my work, my life style ,my fiance , my mother passed, so called friends had abandoned, all in a daily continuum of horrific, worsening symptoms. Then I ran out of ALL possible funds, was still just as violently sick, lost my home and was homeless, full of intense fear and barely even able to fight or fend for myself, I lost my self worth as a person. I had been stripped on every level. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, materially. It felt like my fate was to give up. How did I find my way out? 98% wanted to die, but 2% , that small little bit of rational brain could not accept this hell would be all for nothing. One part of me could not and would not accept this as life, even though it was happening and had been for 6 years by this point. To that one piece of me this did not make sense, since my old life had been all about productivity and meaning. There was an ounce of extremely potent will power to have this not be for nothing. I had to fight the neurological crap I was dealing with and had nothing left to lose but me now, so all I could think was, simply “You ARE OK.” I would repeat it out loud, sometimes for hours on end, lying in bed, on the floor unable to breathe properly due to Lyme related cardiac and respiratory issues “You ARE OK.”—over and over.
I simply refused to use a cane or be placed in a wheelchair at the worst of times due to the effects on the skeletal muscular and nervous system and would rather drag myself on the floor or be carried to if possible. It was crazy stuff. For me it was refusing to give up, even though most of me wanted to and all circumstances were taunting me to. Brain trickery maybe, and internal faith, in what at the time I didn’t know, it was just there, it was the other face of this whole thing. Everyone responds and reacts with Lyme differently, treatment wise as well, as we all know. Nothing is cookie cutter, nothing about this disease is what orthodox medicine wants you to believe. In my case it started with the Lyme clinic. In severe and chronic cases like mine it was not a cure but it was a lifesaver. 5 months saved my life. I also found that if there is mold and mycotoxins in the body that can hinder or slow progress. I am currently working on that. I have MY BEST results with UVB ozone IVs on a bi weekly basis and Argentyn 23 hydrosol silver sprayed up the nose regularly. I also take several strong Doterra oils ( in a regime ) and I am working with a stricter protocol on that. Of course detox as well, lymph, sauna ( see http://drlwilson.com/SAUNAS/SAUNA%20PLANS.htm. To build your own inexpensively. ) and colema (http://colema.com) I can’t say I am a saint when it comes to a strict diet however, but it is all organic!